A day without craziness....?

I suppose that at this hour, it would go without saying that things have been sort of crazy. I don't know if I would call it seriously crazy or if I'm just babbling and indecisive but whatever it is, as crazy (or whatever word I give it in the future) as it is, I really wouldn't want it any other way. I could do without the crying and other things I feel terrible (to say the least) that I've done, but I guess it goes along with it because it is something revealed once again. I wouldn't do without the craziness and I know how to change it but the question I have for myself is why don't I? I am a person that is seriously for balance and peace but some how, I find myself having to create a war. I don't want my mind to stop racing but what's really going on? I now feel like I'm about to get into more babbling. To Be Continued...?